Chapter 3

      Is this really happening? Is this really happening to ME?! I couldn't believe what just happened! I kept listening to the song over and over...

صدقني إنك على بالي لو فرقوا بينك وبيني
لو حال من دونك الالي
وأبطيت ما شافتك عيني


في كل حاله عليه غالي
يا سيد كل المزاييني
ومع الغلا منزلٍ عالي
مفروش ورد ورياحيني


القلب عقبك على صالي
مشتاق يا أغلى المحبيني
ودي بشوفك ولا جالي
يا غايتي وأجمل سنيني

      So he's been thinking about me? Out of all the girls out there, why me? I don't know what to say! No one ever dedicated a song to me, a part of me was dancing with joy, but the other was totally freaking out!

What should I do?

What should I say?!

Does this mean he wants to be more than cousins?

      I have so many questions that he needs to answer. But I hold the answer to the most important question, why am I so happy about this? I'm not the type of girl that talks to guys, sure, I have friends on Facebook, beyond that, I'm never myself around guys. Yes, I've always dreamed of falling in love, I always wondered what it'd be like.. I never thought something like this would happen to ME! And I have to admit, telling me how he feels through a song is SO romantic -- love struck-- Its safe right? he's a close family relative, he'll never heart me! If he made this move akeed he put a lot of thought into it right? its too risky so I'm sure he's serious.

      This could be a once in a life time opportunity, to fall in love and escape our horrible traditional marriages, he's also Ahmed's best friend, so he must be a good guy if Ahmed likes so much.. okay I think I've kept him waiting long enough! bat'3ala and i'll act outraged with his move.. yeah sounds like a good Idea ( is it really?:p).

Facebook..

Shatha Al-x:
I was up all night thinking.. when did this crush start?
If you don't mind, I need to talk about this with my cousin Noora, I always tell her everything and I need her advice

I sent that when I first woke up in the morning, I kept checking my Facebook Inbox every hour.

4:27 pm..

Abdullah Al-x:
hey I'm sorry about the late reply
to be honest I would prefer you don't tell her....I don't want to take any risks. ana wi7di ma m9adig inni I told you :s and I don't want to regret that I did

na3am? "I don't want to regret that I did"? its so obvious that he does already! Why is this bothering me? and why didn't he answer my first question?!! Ma 9ar baina shay and I'm already mad at him. I'll keep him waiting..

5:10 pm, okay I can't wait any longer..

Shatha Al-x:
ok I won't
I just have to ask you, am I the first girl you send a love song to, or the 10th?
I don't mean to be rude or anything, but you do hang out with other girls, so isn't that a risk?

Abdullah Al-x:
Shatha, I have never EVER done something life this before, which is why I'm scared. A LOT of girl talk about me and say i'm la33ab... you know why? its cause when they ask me I say NO. I'm not used to love. And who says I hang out with girls, I honestly don't. I only say hi to girls mostly from my school.. but I do not " go out with them".

Shatha Al-x:
Ok but Hind saw you.. look maybe your saying the truth, but I have no proof that you are! And if your doing this for the first time, why are you doing it now? wrong timing.. your going half way across the world to study abroad

Abdullah Al-x:
hey listen, I have to get off Facebook
but I will answer you first
first of all if Hind saw me... then it was probably a school gathering... for school iftar or for a birthday or  something and I tell my parents about it. And you have the complete right not to trust me, I would do the same if I were you. I don't know why I'm doing it now.. cause I never actually thought I would do it.. but shift fur9a that you finally started talking to me. Anyways sam7eeni 3la kil shay, ana ma 8a9di a7u6ish f maw8if '3areeb w atmana tifhameeni. Take care

Shatha Al-x:
I didn't say that you kept things from your parents... look its not that I don't want to trust you, I do! I just don't know how.. maybe I just have to get to know you first. And I don't think ini " f maw8if '3areeb" I just don't understand what's going on!

Abdullah Al-x:
you want me to lay it straight for you?
first of all... Ahmed is my closest friend and cousin. W a5la8o and his personality mumtaza. So I assumed he got it from home and you'd be the same. Second of all, when I saw you the other day with Sara in the car in3ajabt ya3ni. I even told Sara to take care of you, cause if things go well and you agree I would ask for your hand in the future.
Trusting me of course will have to take time. If there is anything else you need me to explain, I would happily do so. I just want you to know that there is no way I can hurt you or do anything against you, because in the end, you are my cousin, w a5af 3laish w a3izish.

11:04 pm..
I just got home, I was running errands. I checked Facebook, what can I say? My heart just melted. how could this be happening to me? could it be? am I finally getting what I always dreamed of? My own fairy-tale. he's so sweet! how could I doubt his intentions...

Shatha Al-x:
sorry for the late reply, I just got back home
WAAW that's really something! No one ever said anything like that to me before! your clearly a nice guy and I don't think I'll have trouble trusting you after what you just said.. you don't have to explain anything else, I think you've gained my trust.


is it too short?
I'll try to post the forth chapter later on tonight.. or morning:P so stay tuned:*