Ahlaaain w sahlaaain!
keifkum? 3asakum 6aibeen?:P
sam7ooni 3al 8u9oor bes I was really really busy!
I saw all your comments on my last post, to those who haven't read the comment, let me brief you:P "post!!" .. "next post??".. "hello??" where some of the comment. LOL! no one gave me feedback on the actual post, except one amazing, beautiful, kind, caring Melat who commented "7abaaait" I don't know you bes a7ibish and i'm sure everything I said about you is true =D lol
enjoooy the post!!
At my fathers side Eid gathering...
What can I say? it's the same every eid, and the same conversations are repeated every eid, sometimes by the same person.
flana: ahlain kil 3am winti b5air 3asakum min el3aideen
me: yin3ad 3laina w 3laikum inshallah
flana: 3arafteeni
me: akeed
flana: min ana?
me: ....... (ugggghhhh why do you have to embarrass me!! LEAVE ME ALONE!)
Anyways that same conversation happened a lot in the first hour I spent there, it's not my fault I have the largest family on earth -- Mashallah-- but how am I supposed to memories the family tree when its most confusing one I have ever seen.
It gets better when my sister arrived, I was playing with my nephew who's just a few months old when he suddenly decided to puke on me, el7amdillah it wasn't a lot so I was cleaning it with a wipe.
I just felt someone staring at me, I lifted my head and looked to my left....
its him.
he had to walk in at the wrong moment?!! we just shared eye contact for a few seconds... How can I describe Abdullah.. he's not tall, average height, good looking bes ma jameel ( I don't like it when guys are too pretty:P) he's white, has a nice la7ya, he has piercing eyes, the type of eyes that can see right through you, they're round and dark. I looked away, I probably turned into a tomato.
I tried to avoid him as much as possible, I'd leave a room if he's in it, look the other way if he's close, at one point he was having a conversation with my sister and I was sitting near by but I couldn't shake hands with him or even just simply say "kil 3an w inta b5air" like I did with all my other cousins, it was weird, it's the first time I see him since we started talking and I don't know how to act normal around him so I just kept ignoring him and pretending that I didn't see him.
I was sitting in one of the living rooms with my aunts and my mom...
Abdullah: esalam 3laikum 5alti Haya ( my mom)
me: ....
he was holding his wallet and his car keys in his hand, I just looked at him because everyone else in the room was doing the same thing.. no one would notice..
mama: ahlain Abdullah keif el 7al? kil 3am winta b5air
Abdullah: winti b5air, bes ba'3ait asalam 3laish, basafar ba3d kam youm
mama: ooh mashallah 6al3it el visa
Abdullah: aywa el7amdillah elyoum 6al3a
mama: miskeen a7med 7abeebi ma 3ayad ma3ana, yallah deeru balkum 3la ba3ath, ni97o ba3ath w shidu 7ailkum
Abdullah: inshallah 5alti, yallah ma3 esalama
mama: ma3 esalama
As soon as he left my breathing went back to normal, cute jai ysalam 3la umi:P Mama was talking to his mom, saying "mashallah 3laih Abdullah A5LA8 w Adab, allah y7if'9o w y5aleelish eyah wajid mu7taram, el7amdillah ana ma 5aifa 3la Ahmad min el'3urba la2no 3indo 7ad min el ahel" I was so happy my mom approves of him, it assured me that I was not wrong with trusting him, he's a good guy.
Later on that day at my grandmothers house -- we have lunch and spend the rest of the day with my mom's side-- I decided to log into Facebook and reply..
Shatha Al-x:
sorry about yesterday, I fell asleep
ma salamt 3laik elyoum! ma3araf aish feeni kint wajid misti7ya:S
fatak aish mama 8alit 3anak elyoum awain Abdullah walad wajid mu2adab w 6ayeb w a5la8o zaina, that's why she's not worried about Ahmed he's going to have good company:p ya7lailha mama, she doesn't know what Abdullah does behind her back, he talks to her daughter w ma na3raf aish nawi:P
elmuhim mabrook 7a9alt el visa elyoum.. I hope you arrive safely w 6amani awal ma too9al
take care!
I signed of and went to get ready for my outing with my cousins
Abdullah Al-x:
Loooool yes I saw you misti7ya ktheeeeeeer
bes mashallah 6al3a kash5a w 7ilwa elyoum.
wow i'm so happy your mom thinks that about me.... chub inzain ana niyitee 9afyaaa :P
my flight is at 3:00 am so I guess we'll have time to talk before I leave :P
5awafteeni ams when you didn't reply
I signed in again before I left and saw that he replied half an hour after I signed out
Shatha Al-x:
thanks you looked nice too.. laish ma labast mi9ar?:P
lol amza7 ma3ak i know your intentions are good:)
sorry about yesterday though... I fell asleep
I'm still at my grandmothers, I don't know when I'll get back
I replied and signed out quickly, the outing was fine we went to a Italian restaurant. As soon as I got home I checked Facebook and saw a rely from my Abdullah, can I call him that? it not too soon right?:P
Abdullah Al-x:
ma labast mi9ar because kint m9aaaadiiii3
i'm not excited at all to leave.. bes yallah inshallah 5aaair
I guess we won't talk for a week till I get settled in... so take care of yourself.. w ba3dain if you need ANYTHING or ANYONE to talk to... I'm here for you... and you need to know that I won't EVER judge you. :p
Shatha Al-x:
salamtak inshallah el7een a7san:)
inshallah everything goes well.. you have to promise to take care of yourself too :P
and I promise that you'll be the first to know if I have any problems:P
a9lan once school starts I won't use Facebook as much! but I'll keep in touch... do the same thing
when are you going to the airport?
Abdullah Al-x:
laa a9lan after I saw you... nasait shai ismo headache
I will take care of myself only if you take care of yourself.
ysharifni ino you let me know about any problems no matter what.. i'll do my best to help. you better keep in touch.. ana ma 9ada8t ino I found you ba3ad t8a63eena?:P
I'm going to the airport at 4.. the flight is at 6
how cute can this person get!!! athoob?<3
Shatha Al-x:
a7sanlak ta5ith panadol, I won't be there every time you have a headache?
of course I'll stay in touch.. mareed a8a63a8 but I can't use Facebook all the time! if I do I'll use my focus and fail:P ba3dain ma b8dar aji englaaaand:P
Abdullah Al-x:
looooool tistahbili huuuh ;)! looool
yeah aham shay dirastish.. allah ywaf8ish
w shidi 7ailish... if your dad doesn't let you go on your own.. bindawarlish 5a6eeb:P (A)
Shatha Al-x:
hahaha a9lan ana ma afakar f elzawaj ellah lama akamil dirasti w atwa'9af
Abdullah Al-x:
ya salaaaaaaaam ya3ni mafrooth antither? la la sorry ana mantither :P
hahahaha jk jk!
allah ywaf8ish insjallah
Shatha Al-x:
I know your joking la t5af I won't attack you:P
allah yisma3 minak.. w inta ba3ad allah ywaf8ak inshallah!!
are you done packing?
Abdullah Al-x:
lol good lanni 7asait kitha bit8a7mi foo8i tshidi sha3ri w t9af3eeni :P
amen inshallah
yeah I am done
Shatha Al-x:
aish 8aloolak hyena harba min el zoo?:P
Abdullah Al-x:
kitha kanit el isha3at:P
Shatha Al-x:
mashllah mashallah... are you testing the "get on shatha's nerve" paln?:P
Abdullah Al-x:
hahhahaha maybe (A)
Shatha Al-x:
mmmm ok I hope this isn't the first time you fail... cause it's not working:p
Shatha Al-x:
elmuhim I'll sign out now.. la t5af I didn't die or anything:P
have a safe flight and take care
Abdullah Al-x:
alright.. lool take care w kil 3an w inti b5air
I will... and you too..
sorry I didn't notice your reply earlier.. hahahaha sa5eefa:p
its been 24 hours! why hasn't he replied yet:( akeed wa9al
Shatha Al-x:
6aminiiiii i'm worried:$
ps. back then I didn't realise that this emotion ":)" is so fake.. iktashaft when I got a Blackberry and met the fake smile emotion.. haha
Friday, September 13, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Chapter 4
Abdullah and I, have been inseparable since that day, I'm constantly on Facebook. All of what has been going on is so new to me, I get butterflies in my stomach every time we talk, I don't think this feeling will be going away anytime soon.
Shatha Al-x:
you don't mind me asking a lot of questions right?:P cause I have one now:$
Abdullah Al-x:
loooooool no I don't mind.. I'm getting used to it
Shatha Al-x:
It's good that your getting used to it, cause it will never stop:P
okay.. so aish ily in3ajabt feh?
btw its the 20th Saroora's birthday
Abdullah Al-x:
looool
I don't know 9ara7a.. il5ajal.. your eyes... eyebrows and eyelashes :P :$
thanks for reminding me, I just texted her
waaaaaaaaaaay athoob ya3ni? <33 I think I'll faint
Shatha Al-x:
lol ana kint wajid misti7ya.. weird thing you notice
anytime
remember that day when I saw you at the mall? I wasn't sure if it was you that's why I didn't come up and say hi, but when I saw you with Ahmed t2akadt w tfashalt.. kint 5aifa tfakarni shaifa nafsy
Abdullah Al-x:
its okay I know you didn't recognise me and I would never think of you in that way.. la t5afi....
Shatha Al-x:
you better not:P
Abdullah Al-x:
wallah Shatha ana mit'thaaaaaayi8 bilmarra.. i'm not ready to leave and I don't want to leave. I wish I didn't make this decision so quickly to go and study abroad :( :(
and it might sound like I'm a little girl but I keep getting teary mareed aroo7 5alaa9 areeeeed ajlis :(
Shatha Al-x:
6ab3an you'll miss your family trust me its normal to feel that way when your about to do something big
I cried like a baby when Ahmed left I miss him so much already! and I don't know why guys think they become less of a man if they show emotion.. I like things to be real so I don't think you sound like a girl.. baini w bainak I saw Ahmed get teary at the airport but shhhhhh:P
but why don't you want to leave? I thought you wanted to go study abroad
Abdullah Al-x:
I'm sure you do miss him so much!
and he's not gonna be happy with you talking about him getting emotional.. what happens in the airport stays in the airport:P
I don't know wallah.. I just don't want to leave my family I'm going to miss them so much
Shatha Al-x:
Inzain laish 8arart troo7 bsir3a?
when are you leaving btw?
Abdullah Al-x:
lol ma3raf cause I want to finish quickly
i'm leaving on Monday or Tuesday inshallah
that's just around the corner.. eid is in two days, am I getting attached to him already?
Shatha Al-x:
wow first day of eid.. so soon
maybe I'll come visit Ahmed
Abdullah Al-x:
you shoooouuld :P!!
Shatha Al-x:
yeah well at least I'll see you first day of eid right?:$
why did I just send that! stupid Shatha..
Abdullah Al-x:
yuuup inshallah at the xxxxx house -.-
I hate it there btw
its soooooooooo boring
Shatha Al-x:
yeah I know I count the seconds that we stay there
so are you and Ahmed studying in the same city or just close by?
what are you studying btw?
Abdullah Al-x:
yeeeah I noticed you don't enjoy it either :P
noooope just close by.. 20 minutes by train
law inshallah
is it just me or am I asking too many questions and all he's doing is just answering them like its a quiz?
Shatha Al-x:
law is one of the things I'm thinking about majoring in
anyway... you look tired go sleep:P
Abdullah Al-x:
study law and come to England:p (A)
laa wallah i'm not tired ....8oooly tib'3i tiftaki mini:P
Shatha Al-x:
lol etha baba 5alani.. la wallah ma kitha bes 7asaitak malan mini :$
Abdullah Al-x:
LOOOL.. ufah wallah ufah.. bil3aks ma kint malan
Shatha Al-x:
lol.. ma3raf ma kint titkalam!
Abdullah Al-x:
I'm not very talkative but I like to listen
Shatha Al-x:
okay then I'll guess I'll do all the talking.. I don't mind:P
ma3raf aish 9ayir feeni I go to bed f wa8t mit2a5ir and I wake up really early
Abdullah Al-x:
what time did you wake up?
keif tjahazti lil eid? salon henna mikjaj.. etc.
Shatha Al-x:
I woke up at 9 yesterday and at 10:30 this morning
lol i'm going to the salon tomorrow inshallah w ma bat7ana
ooh and I don't sleep with my makeup on:P
what about you? keif tjahazt lil eid? salon henna mikyaj?:P
Abdullah Al-x:
hahahahahaha!! NO NO it7annnnniii I like henna (A)
wow mashallah you sleep so little! and we were up all night talking..
hahhaha la wallah ma jahiz I didn't think I would have eid here.. lakin sha3ri sawait w mikyaj done wil7enna ma basawi because no time:p
Shatha Al-x:
really? I love LOVE LOVE henna.. but there's no time and everywhere is fully crowded
anywaaays I'm heading to bed now.. ti9ba7 3la 5air
Abdullah Al-x:
winti min ahla
sweet dreams Shatha
The next day was very busy.. day before eid so I haven't talked to Abdullah all day.
I checked Facebook and my inbox was empty...
Shatha Al-x:
ha la ykoon malait minni marra thanya:P
t7b el 3mr ma yiswa?
Abdullah Al-x:
il3mr la ri7t ma yiswa wallah ma yiswa
5ith 3umri 5ith roo7i 5ith gallby
amooot b il3mr ma yiswa:P
w la 7asha.. amil min nafsi wella amil mannish:p I just thought I'd give you space to let you finish your eid errands
Shatha Al-x:
lol imbayaan:p 7ta ana amoot feeha
ta3raf abadan ma 7assa ino bukra eid:S daiman a7ib el eid bes hal marra ma fathiya abadan!
I didn't know how to reply to the rest so I just didn't say anything
Abdullah Al-x:
laiiiish 3aaad? mafrthoooth tfir7i bitshoofini (A) hahah m9adi8 nafsi ana
but why?
Btw no one has your Facebook password right?
September 21 at 1:28 am Shatha Al-x:
lol bes far7ana shweya:$
ma3raf wallah my closest cousin Noora is not coming this eid and Ahmed is not here.. y8oolo el nas eli y'3airook w y2athook wajid huma ely t7ibhum akthar w mashallah 3la Ahmed w Noora ma m8a9reen.. w ana a8ool laish I miss him:P
my cousin had it but don't worry I changed it
I got sleepy so I laid on my bed... then I slept bil'3ala6
September 21 at 1:37 am Abdullah Al-x:loool 3ayaal I'll have to annoy you a lot in the few days
bes 7arram I know how you feel miskeeena.. 3adi next eid will be better inshallah
I woke up early the next day, I've got a long day ahead of me and I have to get dresses. I went to see my parents w baraktilhum bil3eed w salamt 3la my other siblings. My dad and my brother were getting ready for Eid Prayers w mama jalsa tba5arhum (same cycle every eid:P). I left them to get my work done. First I touched up my hair, applied my makeup which I didn't want to overdo but I still wanted it to be noticeable an flattering.. after all I had someone special to impress this eid:p speaking of which.. OMG! I fell asleep, I didn't see his reply -.-
I checked my inbox very quickly while I wore my new abaya..
September 21 at 1:54 am Abdullah Al-x:
waaiin ru7ti :s :s
September 21 at 2:52 am Abdullah Al-x:
Anywaaay ana baroo7 anam so ttyl take care w 6amneeni
5awafteeni
I'll see you tomorrow inshallah
goodnight
7arraaam miskeeen!! he stayed up waiting for me and I stood him up!! uff I can't reply now I'm already late:(
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I hope the post is not to short, I wanted to make it longer but I'm just so exhausted and I have to be up early tomorrow.. today actually.. whatever.. and I didn't want the post to stop here, I had planned for it to stop at a different scene but I decided I shouldn't write when I'm this sleepy, I don't want the end of this chapter to be dead, won't be fair to you guys:P anyways I hope you enjoyed it!
stay tuned:*
Shatha Al-x:
you don't mind me asking a lot of questions right?:P cause I have one now:$
Abdullah Al-x:
loooooool no I don't mind.. I'm getting used to it
Shatha Al-x:
It's good that your getting used to it, cause it will never stop:P
okay.. so aish ily in3ajabt feh?
btw its the 20th Saroora's birthday
Abdullah Al-x:
looool
I don't know 9ara7a.. il5ajal.. your eyes... eyebrows and eyelashes :P :$
thanks for reminding me, I just texted her
waaaaaaaaaaay athoob ya3ni? <33 I think I'll faint
Shatha Al-x:
lol ana kint wajid misti7ya.. weird thing you notice
anytime
remember that day when I saw you at the mall? I wasn't sure if it was you that's why I didn't come up and say hi, but when I saw you with Ahmed t2akadt w tfashalt.. kint 5aifa tfakarni shaifa nafsy
Abdullah Al-x:
its okay I know you didn't recognise me and I would never think of you in that way.. la t5afi....
Shatha Al-x:
you better not:P
Abdullah Al-x:
wallah Shatha ana mit'thaaaaaayi8 bilmarra.. i'm not ready to leave and I don't want to leave. I wish I didn't make this decision so quickly to go and study abroad :( :(
and it might sound like I'm a little girl but I keep getting teary mareed aroo7 5alaa9 areeeeed ajlis :(
Shatha Al-x:
6ab3an you'll miss your family trust me its normal to feel that way when your about to do something big
I cried like a baby when Ahmed left I miss him so much already! and I don't know why guys think they become less of a man if they show emotion.. I like things to be real so I don't think you sound like a girl.. baini w bainak I saw Ahmed get teary at the airport but shhhhhh:P
but why don't you want to leave? I thought you wanted to go study abroad
Abdullah Al-x:
I'm sure you do miss him so much!
and he's not gonna be happy with you talking about him getting emotional.. what happens in the airport stays in the airport:P
I don't know wallah.. I just don't want to leave my family I'm going to miss them so much
Shatha Al-x:
Inzain laish 8arart troo7 bsir3a?
when are you leaving btw?
Abdullah Al-x:
lol ma3raf cause I want to finish quickly
i'm leaving on Monday or Tuesday inshallah
that's just around the corner.. eid is in two days, am I getting attached to him already?
Shatha Al-x:
wow first day of eid.. so soon
maybe I'll come visit Ahmed
Abdullah Al-x:
you shoooouuld :P!!
Shatha Al-x:
yeah well at least I'll see you first day of eid right?:$
why did I just send that! stupid Shatha..
Abdullah Al-x:
yuuup inshallah at the xxxxx house -.-
I hate it there btw
its soooooooooo boring
Shatha Al-x:
yeah I know I count the seconds that we stay there
so are you and Ahmed studying in the same city or just close by?
what are you studying btw?
Abdullah Al-x:
yeeeah I noticed you don't enjoy it either :P
noooope just close by.. 20 minutes by train
law inshallah
is it just me or am I asking too many questions and all he's doing is just answering them like its a quiz?
Shatha Al-x:
law is one of the things I'm thinking about majoring in
anyway... you look tired go sleep:P
Abdullah Al-x:
study law and come to England:p (A)
laa wallah i'm not tired ....8oooly tib'3i tiftaki mini:P
Shatha Al-x:
lol etha baba 5alani.. la wallah ma kitha bes 7asaitak malan mini :$
Abdullah Al-x:
LOOOL.. ufah wallah ufah.. bil3aks ma kint malan
Shatha Al-x:
lol.. ma3raf ma kint titkalam!
Abdullah Al-x:
I'm not very talkative but I like to listen
Shatha Al-x:
okay then I'll guess I'll do all the talking.. I don't mind:P
ma3raf aish 9ayir feeni I go to bed f wa8t mit2a5ir and I wake up really early
Abdullah Al-x:
what time did you wake up?
keif tjahazti lil eid? salon henna mikjaj.. etc.
Shatha Al-x:
I woke up at 9 yesterday and at 10:30 this morning
lol i'm going to the salon tomorrow inshallah w ma bat7ana
ooh and I don't sleep with my makeup on:P
what about you? keif tjahazt lil eid? salon henna mikyaj?:P
Abdullah Al-x:
hahahahahaha!! NO NO it7annnnniii I like henna (A)
wow mashallah you sleep so little! and we were up all night talking..
hahhaha la wallah ma jahiz I didn't think I would have eid here.. lakin sha3ri sawait w mikyaj done wil7enna ma basawi because no time:p
Shatha Al-x:
really? I love LOVE LOVE henna.. but there's no time and everywhere is fully crowded
anywaaays I'm heading to bed now.. ti9ba7 3la 5air
Abdullah Al-x:
winti min ahla
sweet dreams Shatha
The next day was very busy.. day before eid so I haven't talked to Abdullah all day.
I checked Facebook and my inbox was empty...
Shatha Al-x:
ha la ykoon malait minni marra thanya:P
t7b el 3mr ma yiswa?
Abdullah Al-x:
il3mr la ri7t ma yiswa wallah ma yiswa
5ith 3umri 5ith roo7i 5ith gallby
amooot b il3mr ma yiswa:P
w la 7asha.. amil min nafsi wella amil mannish:p I just thought I'd give you space to let you finish your eid errands
Shatha Al-x:
lol imbayaan:p 7ta ana amoot feeha
ta3raf abadan ma 7assa ino bukra eid:S daiman a7ib el eid bes hal marra ma fathiya abadan!
I didn't know how to reply to the rest so I just didn't say anything
Abdullah Al-x:
laiiiish 3aaad? mafrthoooth tfir7i bitshoofini (A) hahah m9adi8 nafsi ana
but why?
Btw no one has your Facebook password right?
September 21 at 1:28 am Shatha Al-x:
lol bes far7ana shweya:$
ma3raf wallah my closest cousin Noora is not coming this eid and Ahmed is not here.. y8oolo el nas eli y'3airook w y2athook wajid huma ely t7ibhum akthar w mashallah 3la Ahmed w Noora ma m8a9reen.. w ana a8ool laish I miss him:P
my cousin had it but don't worry I changed it
I got sleepy so I laid on my bed... then I slept bil'3ala6
September 21 at 1:37 am Abdullah Al-x:loool 3ayaal I'll have to annoy you a lot in the few days
bes 7arram I know how you feel miskeeena.. 3adi next eid will be better inshallah
I woke up early the next day, I've got a long day ahead of me and I have to get dresses. I went to see my parents w baraktilhum bil3eed w salamt 3la my other siblings. My dad and my brother were getting ready for Eid Prayers w mama jalsa tba5arhum (same cycle every eid:P). I left them to get my work done. First I touched up my hair, applied my makeup which I didn't want to overdo but I still wanted it to be noticeable an flattering.. after all I had someone special to impress this eid:p speaking of which.. OMG! I fell asleep, I didn't see his reply -.-
I checked my inbox very quickly while I wore my new abaya..
September 21 at 1:54 am Abdullah Al-x:
waaiin ru7ti :s :s
September 21 at 2:52 am Abdullah Al-x:
Anywaaay ana baroo7 anam so ttyl take care w 6amneeni
5awafteeni
I'll see you tomorrow inshallah
goodnight
7arraaam miskeeen!! he stayed up waiting for me and I stood him up!! uff I can't reply now I'm already late:(
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I hope the post is not to short, I wanted to make it longer but I'm just so exhausted and I have to be up early tomorrow.. today actually.. whatever.. and I didn't want the post to stop here, I had planned for it to stop at a different scene but I decided I shouldn't write when I'm this sleepy, I don't want the end of this chapter to be dead, won't be fair to you guys:P anyways I hope you enjoyed it!
stay tuned:*
Apology
Halla wallah:p
I'm so sorry that it has taken me a lONG time to post chapter 4, but I have an excuse! I hope you think it's a valid one:p well, what happened was, i was writing and then my laptop suddenly decided to restart, and normally when something like this happens, the post gets saved as a draft but for some reason it didn't:(
It really got me so mad! Because I wrote alot and now I have to start over.. Well not completley, I wrote 3 pharagraphs 2 days ago and thats all that got saved! And I wrote 5 times that amount last night..
Elmuhim i'm so sorry! W inshallah i'll post it tonight, don't wait up though.. I might post it really late.. It takes a lot more than you think to write one post:p
To those who asked, yes it's a real story, it's my story.
Ooh and to my readers who post comments anonymously, fist of all thank you for your amazing comments, w thani shay, if its not too much to ask, it would be nice if you added a nickname or your initials under your comments, just so I know who you are and also so that I can mention your name etc. when I reply to what you said in a post.
Stay tuned my small social media family:*
I'm so sorry that it has taken me a lONG time to post chapter 4, but I have an excuse! I hope you think it's a valid one:p well, what happened was, i was writing and then my laptop suddenly decided to restart, and normally when something like this happens, the post gets saved as a draft but for some reason it didn't:(
It really got me so mad! Because I wrote alot and now I have to start over.. Well not completley, I wrote 3 pharagraphs 2 days ago and thats all that got saved! And I wrote 5 times that amount last night..
Elmuhim i'm so sorry! W inshallah i'll post it tonight, don't wait up though.. I might post it really late.. It takes a lot more than you think to write one post:p
To those who asked, yes it's a real story, it's my story.
Ooh and to my readers who post comments anonymously, fist of all thank you for your amazing comments, w thani shay, if its not too much to ask, it would be nice if you added a nickname or your initials under your comments, just so I know who you are and also so that I can mention your name etc. when I reply to what you said in a post.
Stay tuned my small social media family:*
Saturday, August 17, 2013
My lovely readers,
This post is dedicated to every amazing person that took time to comment, i decided it wold be so much easier for all of us if i just reply to your comments in one post.
Thank you all for your words of encouragement, for those who request more posts, inshallah i'll try my best to post as frequetly as possible, just keep in mind that I just started this blog less than a week ago and i'm already in the middle of writing the forth chapter:p
To readers that don't underatand arabish ( english+arabic) i'm sorry, I had no idea that anyone beyond the gulf would be interested in reading my blog. The facebook converations are real so I didn't want to change them, but I will figure out a way fo translate them in the next chapters.
Silent readers, I used to be one of you, so trust me when I tell you, the feedback that a blogger gets, whether its good or bad, motivates them to write, it also brings more life to the posts because when we write, we know that someone out there is waiting to read our stories.
Keep an eye out for chapter 4 tonight!
Stay tuned:*
Chapter 3
Is this really happening? Is this really happening to ME?! I couldn't believe what just happened! I kept listening to the song over and over...
صدقني إنك على
بالي لو فرقوا بينك وبيني
لو حال من دونك الالي
وأبطيت ما شافتك عيني
في كل حاله عليه غالي
يا سيد كل المزاييني
ومع الغلا منزلٍ عالي
مفروش ورد ورياحيني
القلب عقبك على صالي
مشتاق يا أغلى المحبيني
ودي بشوفك ولا جالي
يا غايتي وأجمل سنيني
لو حال من دونك الالي
وأبطيت ما شافتك عيني
في كل حاله عليه غالي
يا سيد كل المزاييني
ومع الغلا منزلٍ عالي
مفروش ورد ورياحيني
القلب عقبك على صالي
مشتاق يا أغلى المحبيني
ودي بشوفك ولا جالي
يا غايتي وأجمل سنيني
So he's been thinking about me? Out of all the girls out there, why me? I don't know what to say! No one ever dedicated a song to me, a part of me was dancing with joy, but the other was totally freaking out!
What should I do?
What should I say?!
Does this mean he wants to be more than cousins?
I have so many questions that he needs to answer. But I hold the answer to the most important question, why am I so happy about this? I'm not the type of girl that talks to guys, sure, I have friends on Facebook, beyond that, I'm never myself around guys. Yes, I've always dreamed of falling in love, I always wondered what it'd be like.. I never thought something like this would happen to ME! And I have to admit, telling me how he feels through a song is SO romantic -- love struck-- Its safe right? he's a close family relative, he'll never heart me! If he made this move akeed he put a lot of thought into it right? its too risky so I'm sure he's serious.
This could be a once in a life time opportunity, to fall in love and escape our horrible traditional marriages, he's also Ahmed's best friend, so he must be a good guy if Ahmed likes so much.. okay I think I've kept him waiting long enough! bat'3ala and i'll act outraged with his move.. yeah sounds like a good Idea ( is it really?:p).
Facebook..
Shatha Al-x:
I was up all night thinking.. when did this crush start?
If you don't mind, I need to talk about this with my cousin Noora, I always tell her everything and I need her advice
I sent that when I first woke up in the morning, I kept checking my Facebook Inbox every hour.
4:27 pm..
Abdullah Al-x:
hey I'm sorry about the late reply
to be honest I would prefer you don't tell her....I don't want to take any risks. ana wi7di ma m9adig inni I told you :s and I don't want to regret that I did
na3am? "I don't want to regret that I did"? its so obvious that he does already! Why is this bothering me? and why didn't he answer my first question?!! Ma 9ar baina shay and I'm already mad at him. I'll keep him waiting..
5:10 pm, okay I can't wait any longer..
Shatha Al-x:
ok I won't
I just have to ask you, am I the first girl you send a love song to, or the 10th?
I don't mean to be rude or anything, but you do hang out with other girls, so isn't that a risk?
Abdullah Al-x:
Shatha, I have never EVER done something life this before, which is why I'm scared. A LOT of girl talk about me and say i'm la33ab... you know why? its cause when they ask me I say NO. I'm not used to love. And who says I hang out with girls, I honestly don't. I only say hi to girls mostly from my school.. but I do not " go out with them".
Shatha Al-x:
Ok but Hind saw you.. look maybe your saying the truth, but I have no proof that you are! And if your doing this for the first time, why are you doing it now? wrong timing.. your going half way across the world to study abroad
Abdullah Al-x:
hey listen, I have to get off Facebook
but I will answer you first
first of all if Hind saw me... then it was probably a school gathering... for school iftar or for a birthday or something and I tell my parents about it. And you have the complete right not to trust me, I would do the same if I were you. I don't know why I'm doing it now.. cause I never actually thought I would do it.. but shift fur9a that you finally started talking to me. Anyways sam7eeni 3la kil shay, ana ma 8a9di a7u6ish f maw8if '3areeb w atmana tifhameeni. Take care
Shatha Al-x:
I didn't say that you kept things from your parents... look its not that I don't want to trust you, I do! I just don't know how.. maybe I just have to get to know you first. And I don't think ini " f maw8if '3areeb" I just don't understand what's going on!
Abdullah Al-x:
you want me to lay it straight for you?
first of all... Ahmed is my closest friend and cousin. W a5la8o and his personality mumtaza. So I assumed he got it from home and you'd be the same. Second of all, when I saw you the other day with Sara in the car in3ajabt ya3ni. I even told Sara to take care of you, cause if things go well and you agree I would ask for your hand in the future.
Trusting me of course will have to take time. If there is anything else you need me to explain, I would happily do so. I just want you to know that there is no way I can hurt you or do anything against you, because in the end, you are my cousin, w a5af 3laish w a3izish.
11:04 pm..
I just got home, I was running errands. I checked Facebook, what can I say? My heart just melted. how could this be happening to me? could it be? am I finally getting what I always dreamed of? My own fairy-tale. he's so sweet! how could I doubt his intentions...
Shatha Al-x:
sorry for the late reply, I just got back home
WAAW that's really something! No one ever said anything like that to me before! your clearly a nice guy and I don't think I'll have trouble trusting you after what you just said.. you don't have to explain anything else, I think you've gained my trust.
is it too short?
I'll try to post the forth chapter later on tonight.. or morning:P so stay tuned:*
Facebook..
Shatha Al-x:
I was up all night thinking.. when did this crush start?
If you don't mind, I need to talk about this with my cousin Noora, I always tell her everything and I need her advice
I sent that when I first woke up in the morning, I kept checking my Facebook Inbox every hour.
4:27 pm..
Abdullah Al-x:
hey I'm sorry about the late reply
to be honest I would prefer you don't tell her....I don't want to take any risks. ana wi7di ma m9adig inni I told you :s and I don't want to regret that I did
na3am? "I don't want to regret that I did"? its so obvious that he does already! Why is this bothering me? and why didn't he answer my first question?!! Ma 9ar baina shay and I'm already mad at him. I'll keep him waiting..
5:10 pm, okay I can't wait any longer..
Shatha Al-x:
ok I won't
I just have to ask you, am I the first girl you send a love song to, or the 10th?
I don't mean to be rude or anything, but you do hang out with other girls, so isn't that a risk?
Abdullah Al-x:
Shatha, I have never EVER done something life this before, which is why I'm scared. A LOT of girl talk about me and say i'm la33ab... you know why? its cause when they ask me I say NO. I'm not used to love. And who says I hang out with girls, I honestly don't. I only say hi to girls mostly from my school.. but I do not " go out with them".
Shatha Al-x:
Ok but Hind saw you.. look maybe your saying the truth, but I have no proof that you are! And if your doing this for the first time, why are you doing it now? wrong timing.. your going half way across the world to study abroad
Abdullah Al-x:
hey listen, I have to get off Facebook
but I will answer you first
first of all if Hind saw me... then it was probably a school gathering... for school iftar or for a birthday or something and I tell my parents about it. And you have the complete right not to trust me, I would do the same if I were you. I don't know why I'm doing it now.. cause I never actually thought I would do it.. but shift fur9a that you finally started talking to me. Anyways sam7eeni 3la kil shay, ana ma 8a9di a7u6ish f maw8if '3areeb w atmana tifhameeni. Take care
Shatha Al-x:
I didn't say that you kept things from your parents... look its not that I don't want to trust you, I do! I just don't know how.. maybe I just have to get to know you first. And I don't think ini " f maw8if '3areeb" I just don't understand what's going on!
Abdullah Al-x:
you want me to lay it straight for you?
first of all... Ahmed is my closest friend and cousin. W a5la8o and his personality mumtaza. So I assumed he got it from home and you'd be the same. Second of all, when I saw you the other day with Sara in the car in3ajabt ya3ni. I even told Sara to take care of you, cause if things go well and you agree I would ask for your hand in the future.
Trusting me of course will have to take time. If there is anything else you need me to explain, I would happily do so. I just want you to know that there is no way I can hurt you or do anything against you, because in the end, you are my cousin, w a5af 3laish w a3izish.
11:04 pm..
I just got home, I was running errands. I checked Facebook, what can I say? My heart just melted. how could this be happening to me? could it be? am I finally getting what I always dreamed of? My own fairy-tale. he's so sweet! how could I doubt his intentions...
Shatha Al-x:
sorry for the late reply, I just got back home
WAAW that's really something! No one ever said anything like that to me before! your clearly a nice guy and I don't think I'll have trouble trusting you after what you just said.. you don't have to explain anything else, I think you've gained my trust.
is it too short?
I'll try to post the forth chapter later on tonight.. or morning:P so stay tuned:*
Friday, August 16, 2013
Dedicated to my silent readers <3
I decided to wait for your feedback before posting the third chapter, keep in mind that I have already finished writing it:p
I would really love to know what you think of my story so far, did you enjoy it?
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Chapter 2
A few weeks later...
It was Hind's birthday, so we ( we as in: me, Noora, Hind, and a few of our friends) went out for an early dinner at B+F, since Noora was in town, we decided to celebrate it in the most grand way ever! ( remember when I introduced the characters I mention that she lives in Qatar) so after dinner we arranged for a limo to pick us up to surprise Hind! we were all dressed up under our abayas, and were looking to go free and wild for one night. The limo had a ma5fi after all, so why not!
after we ordered our food, a group of guys passed us to go to their table.
Noora: look!
Hind: is that Abdullah?
Shatha: wain?
Hind: in that table right there, he's wearing a blue shit.
Shatha: I can only see his back.. ( just then he turned and our eyes locked)
Noora: *laughs* he turned around just to look at you
Hind: OMG! he just turned his face to look at you again * and bursts into laughter with Noora*
Shatha: stop laughing!! everyone is looking at us ( feeling my cheeks getting hot, tomato alert!)
Noora: he keeps on.. *laughs*.. turning his head to look at you.. * laughs*
Shatha: Noora w Hind, stop it! its so obvious that your laughing at him.
Hind: sorry but it's just too cute!
Shatha: ...
I can't deny, after what just happened, I'm starting to like all the attention I'm getting from him. I can't admit that to my cousins!
We paid, then we left, and the guys were right behind us! warana warana... it looked like they were following us.
Shatha: OMG you guys! I think they're following us!
Noora: this is just too funny!
Hind: ha2aaa I can't believe him!
( The girls keep turning around and laughing)
Shatha: Banat bes 3aib, they'll think we're enjoying this
We went to the toilet to freshen up, and to my disappointment, they were gone when we were done!
The limo was so much fun, we danced and had the time of our lives. But something happened that night, I don't know what was going on with me.. I was dancing and having so much fun, but I felt distant, my mind was some where else. I kept thinking about him, could it be? is he really interested in me? Why am I thinking about this! he's not into you, why would he be?!!
Ramadan 2009
Ramadan family gatherings. They could get boring when its with my fathers side. Its not that I don't tolerate them, I do, I just prefer my mom's side. Am I a bad person for admitting that? Don't answer that!
Shatha: mama, can we leave now?
Mama: 3aaaib
Shatha: kilshay 3aib? 5ala9 we had dinner..
Mama: Sara is leaving soon, ask her if she can drop you off.
At the car,
Shatha: yallah * saying it with a very impatient tone*
Sara: *raises one eyebrow* komar ana?
Shatha: la 7ashash, my beautiful cousin who was so nice to agreeing to drop me home, but what are we waiting for?
Sara: we're dropping Maha home, so I guess I'm komar. Just for today though, I saw you get excited for a second
Shatha: *giggles*
Maha opens the door, enters the car while apologizing for being late ( Maha is Abdullah's sister, she's 12, very quiet, very sweet, along with being the shyest person ever!). We pulled up next to her house, nazlit and we said our goodbyes. Just as we were about to leave..
.. guess what?
yup! you guessed right!
Abdullah.
He walked out the door, stopped mid step when he saw us, he was looking at us, trying to figure out who's sitting next to Sara. Its been a month since the whole facebook salfa, I know Sara talked to him, but she never told me how he reacted to what said. My thoughts were cut when Sara did the unthinkable.
*beeeeeb*
I made a mental note to kill Sara. Why did she just do that? She then rolled down my window, and called him..
Sara: Abdullah.. ( he took one more step then stopped, looked at me. I guess he's not sure if its me.)
Sare: ta3al ta3al, mafi 7ad '3areeb
So he walked to the car, w faj2a his hand is inches away from my face.. and I see Sara extending hers too..
Sara: esalam 3laikum *shakes his hand*
Abdullah: wa3laikum esalam *looks at me and extends his hand*
Abdullah: esalam 3laikum Shatha, keif el 7al?
Shatha: *shakes his hand, looks him in the eye* wa3laikum esalam, el7amdillah * pulls her hand and looks down*
Abdullah and Sara start conversing about something that i'm not paying attention too, I was fidgeting, checking my phone, I felt so embarrassed and a bit nervous. Why am I nervous?! ugghh.. I looked up and our eyes met, I looked away.. looked back, and our eyes met again, I think my face turned into a tomato, so I made a very wise decision to look away again. I felt him staring at me from time to time. Finally!! His ride parked behind us.
Abdullah: okay Sara, my friend is here..
Sara: inzain, we'll finish this later.
Abdullah: inshallah! yallah ma3 esalama
Sara: allah ysalmik
He got into his friend's car, and left. His house was pretty far, so the car ride home was long and quiet. Sara decided to break the silence.
Sara: Shatha
Shatha: halla
Sara: it's very rare that you find genuinely good people, you have to be careful with the way you choose to treat others, you can't always jump to conclusions, act before you think! look at everything from a different perspective before attacking peo..
Shatha: * interrupts sara* I know who your talking about, and..
Sara: *cuts me off* la ya Shatha, don't even try, you say you have all those guys on your list as friends 9a7? you think that way.. did you think about what the facebook guy friends think of you? did you think about how it looks to other people? not everyone looks at things with simplicity, something you think is just a mere innocent friendship may look like something else to others, specially guys, Abdullah knows that, that's why he came to me and asked me to take care of you, he's not judging you Shatha, look at the big picture.
Shatha: ...
I couldn't say anything. I knew she was right. If he asked her to take care of me, that means he cares about me right? Because we're family? yeah, akeed! why else would he care, its not like he knows me, w ni7na ahil after all. the rest of the car ride was quiet.
A few days before Eid, my brother was travelling to study abroad. Yeah I know! 7arram 9a7? Its defiantly going to be different around here without Ahmed. Let me tell you about Ahmed, I don't know where to begin..
... When we were younger, Ahmed was that hyper kid always pulling pranks on everyone, making jokes and laughing at everyone and everything, annoying his little sister ( in this case, that would be me), the kid that mothers couldn't control so setting them free was their only option. I always imagined him looking like a monkey, only because that's the way I saw him. He was always jumping around ruining everything. If you asked me to draw my siblings, he'd be hanging on a tree with one arm and holding a banana with the other. I hated him! I hated my childhood, I was constantly picked on by my older sibling, and I preferred playing alone! I had a huge imagination that made playing by myself so much fun. ( secret about myself: after watching Toy Story, I pretended to sleep and kept one eye open, just to watch my toys come back to life, I truly believed that toys moved when we're not looking. Sometimes, I would act as if I was leaving the room then turn around as fast I could to watch if they moved from where I left them. That's how big my imagination was!)
As we grew older, Ahmed remained as annoying, but he was caring, sweet, and very thoughtful. Now that I come to think of it, even as kids, he always protective me. I always had a soft spot for my banana eating, monkey brother. So I was getting emotional the day he was leaving.
At the airport, a lot of my boy cousins came to say goodbye. So basically we filled up the tiny airport. It was myself and my family, my cousins, and of course, Abdullah.
After Ahmed checked in his luggage, he came to tell us about the girl that checked in in front of him. he was so into the salfa and everyone from my parents, to my siblings, to my cousins were so into it too, we were all surrounding him. Just then, I realised something, Ahmed is still that funny kid, jumping around, telling stories, making everyone around him smile. I smiled as my eyes got teary.
I turned around... BISMILLAH!! how long has he been standing behind me?! Abdullah was right behind me, smiling and listening to Ahmed's salfa. I quickly went behind mama. He creeped me out. LOL!
My mom, my sister, and myself moved away from the guys to give them space while they said their goodbyes near the check in area, since they're not taking him to the gate so that we, his family could get some alone time with him. I saw Abdullah looking at me, but today was different, he didn't look away when our eyes locked, he just kept looking at me, I kept looking away, and every time I look back, i'd find him looking at me.
I won't get to details with what happened when I said goodbye to my brother, lets just say... waterfalls. As soon as I got home, I logged into facebook, and inbox-ed Abdullah, I never learn, I always act SO FAST before thinking.
Shatha Al-x: can I ask you something?
I kept refreshing the page. until I saw a new message from him.
Abdullah Al-x: heey,
yeah sure, anything!
Shatha Al-x: why were you turning your head every five minutes just to look at us at B+F? and why were you following us?
Abdullah Al-x: I knew you thought we were following you! it was just a coincidence, I was heading to my car, as soon as I realised you thought I was following you, I took another root even though it didn't take me straight to my car. As to why I was looking at you, I don't know..
Shatha Al-x: okay.. let me know when you do:p
Abdullah Al-x: Shatha I want to tell you something, but I'm afraid of how you'll react
Shatha Al-x: 3adi you can tell me, I don't bite:p
Abdullah Al-x: This should explain everything...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0vTeaeR9Kw
Stay tuned:*
It was Hind's birthday, so we ( we as in: me, Noora, Hind, and a few of our friends) went out for an early dinner at B+F, since Noora was in town, we decided to celebrate it in the most grand way ever! ( remember when I introduced the characters I mention that she lives in Qatar) so after dinner we arranged for a limo to pick us up to surprise Hind! we were all dressed up under our abayas, and were looking to go free and wild for one night. The limo had a ma5fi after all, so why not!
after we ordered our food, a group of guys passed us to go to their table.
Noora: look!
Hind: is that Abdullah?
Shatha: wain?
Hind: in that table right there, he's wearing a blue shit.
Shatha: I can only see his back.. ( just then he turned and our eyes locked)
Noora: *laughs* he turned around just to look at you
Hind: OMG! he just turned his face to look at you again * and bursts into laughter with Noora*
Shatha: stop laughing!! everyone is looking at us ( feeling my cheeks getting hot, tomato alert!)
Noora: he keeps on.. *laughs*.. turning his head to look at you.. * laughs*
Shatha: Noora w Hind, stop it! its so obvious that your laughing at him.
Hind: sorry but it's just too cute!
Shatha: ...
I can't deny, after what just happened, I'm starting to like all the attention I'm getting from him. I can't admit that to my cousins!
We paid, then we left, and the guys were right behind us! warana warana... it looked like they were following us.
Shatha: OMG you guys! I think they're following us!
Noora: this is just too funny!
Hind: ha2aaa I can't believe him!
( The girls keep turning around and laughing)
Shatha: Banat bes 3aib, they'll think we're enjoying this
We went to the toilet to freshen up, and to my disappointment, they were gone when we were done!
The limo was so much fun, we danced and had the time of our lives. But something happened that night, I don't know what was going on with me.. I was dancing and having so much fun, but I felt distant, my mind was some where else. I kept thinking about him, could it be? is he really interested in me? Why am I thinking about this! he's not into you, why would he be?!!
Ramadan 2009
Ramadan family gatherings. They could get boring when its with my fathers side. Its not that I don't tolerate them, I do, I just prefer my mom's side. Am I a bad person for admitting that? Don't answer that!
Shatha: mama, can we leave now?
Mama: 3aaaib
Shatha: kilshay 3aib? 5ala9 we had dinner..
Mama: Sara is leaving soon, ask her if she can drop you off.
At the car,
Shatha: yallah * saying it with a very impatient tone*
Sara: *raises one eyebrow* komar ana?
Shatha: la 7ashash, my beautiful cousin who was so nice to agreeing to drop me home, but what are we waiting for?
Sara: we're dropping Maha home, so I guess I'm komar. Just for today though, I saw you get excited for a second
Shatha: *giggles*
Maha opens the door, enters the car while apologizing for being late ( Maha is Abdullah's sister, she's 12, very quiet, very sweet, along with being the shyest person ever!). We pulled up next to her house, nazlit and we said our goodbyes. Just as we were about to leave..
.. guess what?
yup! you guessed right!
Abdullah.
He walked out the door, stopped mid step when he saw us, he was looking at us, trying to figure out who's sitting next to Sara. Its been a month since the whole facebook salfa, I know Sara talked to him, but she never told me how he reacted to what said. My thoughts were cut when Sara did the unthinkable.
*beeeeeb*
I made a mental note to kill Sara. Why did she just do that? She then rolled down my window, and called him..
Sara: Abdullah.. ( he took one more step then stopped, looked at me. I guess he's not sure if its me.)
Sare: ta3al ta3al, mafi 7ad '3areeb
So he walked to the car, w faj2a his hand is inches away from my face.. and I see Sara extending hers too..
Sara: esalam 3laikum *shakes his hand*
Abdullah: wa3laikum esalam *looks at me and extends his hand*
Abdullah: esalam 3laikum Shatha, keif el 7al?
Shatha: *shakes his hand, looks him in the eye* wa3laikum esalam, el7amdillah * pulls her hand and looks down*
Abdullah and Sara start conversing about something that i'm not paying attention too, I was fidgeting, checking my phone, I felt so embarrassed and a bit nervous. Why am I nervous?! ugghh.. I looked up and our eyes met, I looked away.. looked back, and our eyes met again, I think my face turned into a tomato, so I made a very wise decision to look away again. I felt him staring at me from time to time. Finally!! His ride parked behind us.
Abdullah: okay Sara, my friend is here..
Sara: inzain, we'll finish this later.
Abdullah: inshallah! yallah ma3 esalama
Sara: allah ysalmik
He got into his friend's car, and left. His house was pretty far, so the car ride home was long and quiet. Sara decided to break the silence.
Sara: Shatha
Shatha: halla
Sara: it's very rare that you find genuinely good people, you have to be careful with the way you choose to treat others, you can't always jump to conclusions, act before you think! look at everything from a different perspective before attacking peo..
Shatha: * interrupts sara* I know who your talking about, and..
Sara: *cuts me off* la ya Shatha, don't even try, you say you have all those guys on your list as friends 9a7? you think that way.. did you think about what the facebook guy friends think of you? did you think about how it looks to other people? not everyone looks at things with simplicity, something you think is just a mere innocent friendship may look like something else to others, specially guys, Abdullah knows that, that's why he came to me and asked me to take care of you, he's not judging you Shatha, look at the big picture.
Shatha: ...
I couldn't say anything. I knew she was right. If he asked her to take care of me, that means he cares about me right? Because we're family? yeah, akeed! why else would he care, its not like he knows me, w ni7na ahil after all. the rest of the car ride was quiet.
A few days before Eid, my brother was travelling to study abroad. Yeah I know! 7arram 9a7? Its defiantly going to be different around here without Ahmed. Let me tell you about Ahmed, I don't know where to begin..
... When we were younger, Ahmed was that hyper kid always pulling pranks on everyone, making jokes and laughing at everyone and everything, annoying his little sister ( in this case, that would be me), the kid that mothers couldn't control so setting them free was their only option. I always imagined him looking like a monkey, only because that's the way I saw him. He was always jumping around ruining everything. If you asked me to draw my siblings, he'd be hanging on a tree with one arm and holding a banana with the other. I hated him! I hated my childhood, I was constantly picked on by my older sibling, and I preferred playing alone! I had a huge imagination that made playing by myself so much fun. ( secret about myself: after watching Toy Story, I pretended to sleep and kept one eye open, just to watch my toys come back to life, I truly believed that toys moved when we're not looking. Sometimes, I would act as if I was leaving the room then turn around as fast I could to watch if they moved from where I left them. That's how big my imagination was!)
As we grew older, Ahmed remained as annoying, but he was caring, sweet, and very thoughtful. Now that I come to think of it, even as kids, he always protective me. I always had a soft spot for my banana eating, monkey brother. So I was getting emotional the day he was leaving.
At the airport, a lot of my boy cousins came to say goodbye. So basically we filled up the tiny airport. It was myself and my family, my cousins, and of course, Abdullah.
After Ahmed checked in his luggage, he came to tell us about the girl that checked in in front of him. he was so into the salfa and everyone from my parents, to my siblings, to my cousins were so into it too, we were all surrounding him. Just then, I realised something, Ahmed is still that funny kid, jumping around, telling stories, making everyone around him smile. I smiled as my eyes got teary.
I turned around... BISMILLAH!! how long has he been standing behind me?! Abdullah was right behind me, smiling and listening to Ahmed's salfa. I quickly went behind mama. He creeped me out. LOL!
My mom, my sister, and myself moved away from the guys to give them space while they said their goodbyes near the check in area, since they're not taking him to the gate so that we, his family could get some alone time with him. I saw Abdullah looking at me, but today was different, he didn't look away when our eyes locked, he just kept looking at me, I kept looking away, and every time I look back, i'd find him looking at me.
I won't get to details with what happened when I said goodbye to my brother, lets just say... waterfalls. As soon as I got home, I logged into facebook, and inbox-ed Abdullah, I never learn, I always act SO FAST before thinking.
Shatha Al-x: can I ask you something?
I kept refreshing the page. until I saw a new message from him.
Abdullah Al-x: heey,
yeah sure, anything!
Shatha Al-x: why were you turning your head every five minutes just to look at us at B+F? and why were you following us?
Abdullah Al-x: I knew you thought we were following you! it was just a coincidence, I was heading to my car, as soon as I realised you thought I was following you, I took another root even though it didn't take me straight to my car. As to why I was looking at you, I don't know..
Shatha Al-x: okay.. let me know when you do:p
Abdullah Al-x: Shatha I want to tell you something, but I'm afraid of how you'll react
Shatha Al-x: 3adi you can tell me, I don't bite:p
Abdullah Al-x: This should explain everything...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0vTeaeR9Kw
Stay tuned:*
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Chapter 1
I forgot to mention Shatha's age, she was 16 when her story began. I'm not sure if anyone will find my story worth reading, but if for some unknown reason you did, yes you! don't hesitate and share this blog with your friends, family.. honestly whoever you think would be interested in reading about Shatha, just share it with them.
shall we cut to the chase?:p
okay.. here we go..
2009
Ahmed was just dropping me at the mall's front entrance. As the car stopped..
Shatha: I'll try to be quick, I just need a few things from MAC and two other stores.
Ahmed: 3adi, take your time. I'll just park the car and then i'll go inside, call me if you need anything.
Shatha: inshallah.
Uff inshallah ma ykoon za7ma, I picked the wrong day to go out with my naked face! ( rabana kama 5ala8tana:p). as I was heading to the escalators, I saw a guy that looked familiar, he kind of looks like Abdullah. Could it be? No way! Sure, I haven't seen him in almost a year, but that kind of transformation is nearly impossible. Not to mention how good looking this guy is! And his beard is so perfect mashallah --beards make or break a guys hotness-- wait.. is he staring at me? ( Abdullah is 19, he's a family relative min jihit abooy. I'm not sure how we're exactly related, but I always see him in Eid and on big family gatherings. he's white, pimpled, and short) Shatha, stop being a creep and just get on the damn escalator *screamed the voice inside my head*.
After I got what I needed from MAC, I headed to Sephora. That guy really looked like Abdullah but come on, lets be realistic! That guy had no sign of acne, knowing how bad Abdullah's condition was, it would have left scars! true, that guy was not that tall, just like Abdullah... Omg Shatha! its not him, just drop it.
Okay I think I got everything I needed. Toot toot *calling Ahmed* toot toot..
Ahmed: haa 5ala9ti?
Shatha: yeah, where are you?
Ahmad: Meet me at Starbucks
Shatha: okay see you in a few..
Good.. Starbucks is not that far, my feet are KILLING ME!!
It looks like Ahmed is heading my way, el7amdillah sahal 3lay. Who's that guy with him.. NO! It's the guy from the escalator. 0kay. They're getting closer. Stop staring at me weirdo, he's sipping on his drink while not breaking eye contact. Okay (squinting my eye to get a better look now that he's close enough) Its Abdullah.
Ahmed: done?
Shatha: (asalem wella la2) I think so
Ahmed: you think so? Shatha, I'm not heading here again
Shatha: *giggles* okay! i'm done, I'm done. (looks at Abdullah) ahlain Abdullah, how are you doing?
Abdullah: hallah feesh, I'm good you?
Shatha: ( What happened to his voice? its so manly now. LOL) el7amdillah.. mashaina?
Ahmed: yallah
Why is he walking with us? Maybe he's heading home too. Okay I really hope his car is parked next to us, the last thing I need is an awkward car ride.
Ahmed: Shatha, Abdullah's coming with us
Shatha: (NOO!) okay. (innocently)
The car ride was so awkward. I wanted to die. Pretend texting was my only solution. They kept talking about guy things that I have no interest in what so ever! wa9alna elbait, he dropped me and I made it alive el7amdillah!
A few weeks later, I had a sleepover with my cousins Noora and Hind at my house. (Noora biint 5alti was the type of person that people fell in-love instantly, she's funny, gutsy, brave, hates boys, has the most amazing voice ever, has strong opinions about anyone and everything, malgoofa, she has to know everything, she has my facebook password too, what can I say? she's very persistent, I can't say no to her. besides, it not like I have anything to hide. Hind bint 3ami, she's very sweet and quiet, easy to talk to, really smart, and very supportive!)
We were just hanging out, giving each other home facials, eating junk, and of course entertaining ourselves with facebook ( I know:p ayaam awaal). I wasn't that attached to facebook like everyone else my age, I checked it from time to time. I logged into my account, checked my inbox, Abdullah Al x?! ha:S i opened the message quickly and read it out loud. It said: "For the sake of your father, and for the sake of your brothers, I advise you to delete all the guys on your list."
Noora: na3am na3am na3am?! mino hatha ely ma yista7 3la waiha?
Shatha: hatha allah ysalmish.. and I told them who he is
Hind: ooh hatha Abdullah walad 3ami X
Noora: inzian shyabi? you only have those guys on your list as friends
Hind: inzain he didn't say anything to me
Shatha: I saw him 2 weeks ago and..
Noora: *laughs* so he saw you? fell in love with your natural beauty, and decided to stalk you on facebook, not creepy at all my darling shatha! *laughs again*
Shatha: Shda5al Noora, Hind please talk some sense to our insane friend
Hind: I'm actually with Noora on this one. I mean, why else would he advise you and only you? he defiantly has a crush on you *burst into laughter with Noora*
Shatha: *angry* shda5al what's his problem? he's one to talk, look at his list nu9hum banat
Hind: aywa bes he's in a mixed school, w la tinsi shatha, they just moved back from America a few years ago, aish titwa83i mino?
Noora: ooh ya3ni he's playing the " we're just friends card" awena munfati7.. 3ishtaw
Shatha: (angry) laish ykalamni bhal isloob, 7asasni I'm a slut. 7alal 3laik 7arram 3laina?! I'm calling Sara! ( Sara bint 3ami, so, Hind, Sara and I are cousins, w Noora is my cousin min jihit umi. Sara is close with Abdullah so akeed ti8dar twa9il kalami)
Hind: Shatha, look at the time, she's probably sleeping!
Noora: la2! call call!
Shatha: * Calling sara*
Sara: hmmm * sleepy voice*
Shatha: naima?
Sara: What do you want?
Shatha: sim3i aish sawa Abdullah! ( I told her everything)
Sara: inzain wl ma6loob?
Shatha: wa9li kalami 7arf 7arf
Sara: ...
Shatha: awal shay ya istath Abdullah, what I do is none of your business, so no thanks, I don't need your advice. Thani shay, if you must know, hathi ma sawalfi and how dare you speak to me that way! Don't ever speak to me again. So take your little "advice" shove it down your throat, stop being a hypocrite, follow your own advice instead of judging others.
shall we cut to the chase?:p
okay.. here we go..
2009
Ahmed was just dropping me at the mall's front entrance. As the car stopped..
Shatha: I'll try to be quick, I just need a few things from MAC and two other stores.
Ahmed: 3adi, take your time. I'll just park the car and then i'll go inside, call me if you need anything.
Shatha: inshallah.
Uff inshallah ma ykoon za7ma, I picked the wrong day to go out with my naked face! ( rabana kama 5ala8tana:p). as I was heading to the escalators, I saw a guy that looked familiar, he kind of looks like Abdullah. Could it be? No way! Sure, I haven't seen him in almost a year, but that kind of transformation is nearly impossible. Not to mention how good looking this guy is! And his beard is so perfect mashallah --beards make or break a guys hotness-- wait.. is he staring at me? ( Abdullah is 19, he's a family relative min jihit abooy. I'm not sure how we're exactly related, but I always see him in Eid and on big family gatherings. he's white, pimpled, and short) Shatha, stop being a creep and just get on the damn escalator *screamed the voice inside my head*.
After I got what I needed from MAC, I headed to Sephora. That guy really looked like Abdullah but come on, lets be realistic! That guy had no sign of acne, knowing how bad Abdullah's condition was, it would have left scars! true, that guy was not that tall, just like Abdullah... Omg Shatha! its not him, just drop it.
Okay I think I got everything I needed. Toot toot *calling Ahmed* toot toot..
Ahmed: haa 5ala9ti?
Shatha: yeah, where are you?
Ahmad: Meet me at Starbucks
Shatha: okay see you in a few..
Good.. Starbucks is not that far, my feet are KILLING ME!!
It looks like Ahmed is heading my way, el7amdillah sahal 3lay. Who's that guy with him.. NO! It's the guy from the escalator. 0kay. They're getting closer. Stop staring at me weirdo, he's sipping on his drink while not breaking eye contact. Okay (squinting my eye to get a better look now that he's close enough) Its Abdullah.
Ahmed: done?
Shatha: (asalem wella la2) I think so
Ahmed: you think so? Shatha, I'm not heading here again
Shatha: *giggles* okay! i'm done, I'm done. (looks at Abdullah) ahlain Abdullah, how are you doing?
Abdullah: hallah feesh, I'm good you?
Shatha: ( What happened to his voice? its so manly now. LOL) el7amdillah.. mashaina?
Ahmed: yallah
Why is he walking with us? Maybe he's heading home too. Okay I really hope his car is parked next to us, the last thing I need is an awkward car ride.
Ahmed: Shatha, Abdullah's coming with us
Shatha: (NOO!) okay. (innocently)
The car ride was so awkward. I wanted to die. Pretend texting was my only solution. They kept talking about guy things that I have no interest in what so ever! wa9alna elbait, he dropped me and I made it alive el7amdillah!
A few weeks later, I had a sleepover with my cousins Noora and Hind at my house. (Noora biint 5alti was the type of person that people fell in-love instantly, she's funny, gutsy, brave, hates boys, has the most amazing voice ever, has strong opinions about anyone and everything, malgoofa, she has to know everything, she has my facebook password too, what can I say? she's very persistent, I can't say no to her. besides, it not like I have anything to hide. Hind bint 3ami, she's very sweet and quiet, easy to talk to, really smart, and very supportive!)
We were just hanging out, giving each other home facials, eating junk, and of course entertaining ourselves with facebook ( I know:p ayaam awaal). I wasn't that attached to facebook like everyone else my age, I checked it from time to time. I logged into my account, checked my inbox, Abdullah Al x?! ha:S i opened the message quickly and read it out loud. It said: "For the sake of your father, and for the sake of your brothers, I advise you to delete all the guys on your list."
Noora: na3am na3am na3am?! mino hatha ely ma yista7 3la waiha?
Shatha: hatha allah ysalmish.. and I told them who he is
Hind: ooh hatha Abdullah walad 3ami X
Noora: inzian shyabi? you only have those guys on your list as friends
Hind: inzain he didn't say anything to me
Shatha: I saw him 2 weeks ago and..
Noora: *laughs* so he saw you? fell in love with your natural beauty, and decided to stalk you on facebook, not creepy at all my darling shatha! *laughs again*
Shatha: Shda5al Noora, Hind please talk some sense to our insane friend
Hind: I'm actually with Noora on this one. I mean, why else would he advise you and only you? he defiantly has a crush on you *burst into laughter with Noora*
Shatha: *angry* shda5al what's his problem? he's one to talk, look at his list nu9hum banat
Hind: aywa bes he's in a mixed school, w la tinsi shatha, they just moved back from America a few years ago, aish titwa83i mino?
Noora: ooh ya3ni he's playing the " we're just friends card" awena munfati7.. 3ishtaw
Shatha: (angry) laish ykalamni bhal isloob, 7asasni I'm a slut. 7alal 3laik 7arram 3laina?! I'm calling Sara! ( Sara bint 3ami, so, Hind, Sara and I are cousins, w Noora is my cousin min jihit umi. Sara is close with Abdullah so akeed ti8dar twa9il kalami)
Hind: Shatha, look at the time, she's probably sleeping!
Noora: la2! call call!
Shatha: * Calling sara*
Sara: hmmm * sleepy voice*
Shatha: naima?
Sara: What do you want?
Shatha: sim3i aish sawa Abdullah! ( I told her everything)
Sara: inzain wl ma6loob?
Shatha: wa9li kalami 7arf 7arf
Sara: ...
Shatha: awal shay ya istath Abdullah, what I do is none of your business, so no thanks, I don't need your advice. Thani shay, if you must know, hathi ma sawalfi and how dare you speak to me that way! Don't ever speak to me again. So take your little "advice" shove it down your throat, stop being a hypocrite, follow your own advice instead of judging others.
Characters
Shatha ( Main character): Shatha comes off as being a very shallow person that looks down at others/ shaifa nafis'ha. She gives a very VERY bad first impression, but if you just put some effort to get to know her, you'll realise that she's just a kind girl living in a shell that is not so hard to break into. Once your in her tiny emotional bubble, you'll see Shatha clearly. Who is Shatha? A person that trusts easily, loves deeply, and is too honest with the people she loves when it comes to her feelings ( Which makes her an easy target if you ask me). The moment someone enters Shatha's life, they take up a tiny space in her heart, that grows bigger with time.
If they ever decide to leave, that doesn't mean they left her heart, when she cares about someone, whether its a friend, a relative, or even a guy; they become a part of her that help shape her to the person she is today. Even if they eventually disappoint her, she can't deny that they affected her life. She listens to her heart, acts before thinking, along with say or do ANYTHING for the people she loves and cares about.
Shatha comes from a big conservative family. Which moulded her into the person she is, she's not as conservative as the rest of her family is, but she can defiantly tell the difference between right and wrong. Talking to guys as friends is a big no NO to her, let alone dating. She loves being around her friends and family.
Like almost all other girls, dressing up and playing around with makeup is one of her favourite things to do. Art has been a big part of her life ever since she was first handed a white blank A4 paper and colour pencils. She loves reading romantic novels. She's random, sarcastic, 3aneeeeeeda. Last but not least, if you really know Shatha, you'd know that "habala" is a big part of her daily life. but of course there are times for laughing and joking around, don't mistake her for being a silly person, don't go near Shatha when the situation turns serious. Her temper can't be controlled -- I really made her look like a psychotic person, she's not though! trust me:p-- this is about everything your need to know about Shatha. its a lot, I know.
Noora ( Shatha's cousin): bint 5alit Shatha, 18, lives in Qatar.
Hind ( Shatha's cousin): bint 3am Shatha, 14, next door neighbour.
Sara ( Shatha's cousin): bint 3am Shatha, 23.
Hiba ( Shatha's best friend): 16, she'll be introduced later on in the story.
Manal ( Shatha's cousin): bint 5al Shatha, 12.
Ahmed (Shatha's older brother): 19, overprotective, funny, caring, perfect brother (mashallah).
*side note: more characters will be introduced as the story progresses. The ages of the girls is when this all started, back in 2009.
P.s Talking about myself in third person is really confusing!
If they ever decide to leave, that doesn't mean they left her heart, when she cares about someone, whether its a friend, a relative, or even a guy; they become a part of her that help shape her to the person she is today. Even if they eventually disappoint her, she can't deny that they affected her life. She listens to her heart, acts before thinking, along with say or do ANYTHING for the people she loves and cares about.
Shatha comes from a big conservative family. Which moulded her into the person she is, she's not as conservative as the rest of her family is, but she can defiantly tell the difference between right and wrong. Talking to guys as friends is a big no NO to her, let alone dating. She loves being around her friends and family.
Like almost all other girls, dressing up and playing around with makeup is one of her favourite things to do. Art has been a big part of her life ever since she was first handed a white blank A4 paper and colour pencils. She loves reading romantic novels. She's random, sarcastic, 3aneeeeeeda. Last but not least, if you really know Shatha, you'd know that "habala" is a big part of her daily life. but of course there are times for laughing and joking around, don't mistake her for being a silly person, don't go near Shatha when the situation turns serious. Her temper can't be controlled -- I really made her look like a psychotic person, she's not though! trust me:p-- this is about everything your need to know about Shatha. its a lot, I know.
Noora ( Shatha's cousin): bint 5alit Shatha, 18, lives in Qatar.
Hind ( Shatha's cousin): bint 3am Shatha, 14, next door neighbour.
Sara ( Shatha's cousin): bint 3am Shatha, 23.
Hiba ( Shatha's best friend): 16, she'll be introduced later on in the story.
Manal ( Shatha's cousin): bint 5al Shatha, 12.
Ahmed (Shatha's older brother): 19, overprotective, funny, caring, perfect brother (mashallah).
*side note: more characters will be introduced as the story progresses. The ages of the girls is when this all started, back in 2009.
P.s Talking about myself in third person is really confusing!
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Introduction
For as long as I can
remember, I've always wanted the fairytale. I wanted to be Cinderella in her
pumpkin carriage, I wanted to be carried away to a wonderful world in a magic
carpet, I wanted to be awakened from a long, LONG sleep with a magical kiss. I
wanted a happy ending. To have that, I need my prince charming on his white
horse and shining armor (or so I've been brainwashed to think so). But then again, whatever did happen to all my
favorite Disney princesses? Every single movie ended with the all so famous
line ".. and they lived happily ever after" that automatically made
me think: I just need a guy and I'll be happy forever.
I think -- and I'd like
to emphasize on the word 'THINK'—that all those romantic novels, movies etc.
have set the bars super high for our ideal guy, they've made us believe that
there's an ideal happy ending, that
finding our perfect soul mate was a piece of cake. Well, it's not easy. It
didn’t work that way for me, I'm not saying I'm completely done believing in
love, I just need a time machine that will get me to a time and place where I
can find it and save myself from all the heartache.
My name is Shatha, I'm
not a writer, in fact, I've never heard any of my English teachers praise over
my work. Yes, I did just decide to tell
my story out of the blue. You can say I've been obsessed with reading all those
wonderful love stories/ ruwayat. So, I created this blog to share my story and
my amazing friend Hiba's. She has a huge role in my unfinished journey.
To those who are
thinking, she's so young what has she seen in life that makes her think it's
worth writing about? You are NOT obliged to read or comment on my blog. I'm
still not entirely sure why I'm doing this, I hesitated after creating the
blog, I realized I just gave the world the green light to judge me, so spare me
the hate, I know I'm not perfect. No point in pretending, the sooner you come
to this realization the better… 3u8balkum:p. I don’t regret my mistakes, I
cherish them, because they help me find my morals, values and limits. They help
me find myself.
I've came across a lot
of stories, and every single time, I thought to myself: will anyone be
interested in mine? Now is the time to find out the answer to satisfy my curiosity.
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